Update

I know it's been a while since I've posted so I thought I would post an update. . It's just that my recovery is moving so slowly that it seems there really isn't much to say but I don't want anyone to be concerned my lack of posting is a bad sign so I guess here goes with the boring details.

With all the comments with suggestions on increasing the font size I did manage to figure out my problem here. It appears that somewhere along the line I changed the settings to something less than 100% and that's why I was having issues.

I'm still having major issues with my double vision but at least now size of font isn't contributing to them. I have managed to visit a few blogs but progress is slow since I only seem to be able to read one post before my eyes are shot and usually I'm done for the day.

I have really appreciated everyones comments, emails, cards and phone calls. It sure helps my day not feel quite so long and I feel less isolated when I hear from my horse and blogging friends. I'm quite sure the phone calls even help my blood pressure. LOL

I can finally walk to the barn without Dave's help but I can't really do anything once I get there, nor can I stay for long. I have one of those lightweight bag chairs out there so I can sit for a while and drink in the smell of my horses.

Usually the boys in that first barn talk to me. I'm sure they are puzzled to see me doing nothing but sitting in a chair. All of the horses seems to be very vocal when I speak. I am sure they are all wondering what the heck is going on that most only hear my voice and do not see me.

Making the trip around to visit all the horses is really still too much although I must confess I have done it a few times. I usually am done for the day after that. Legs is just downright p*ssed with me shaking his head and pinning his ears. He is wanting to go back to work and that just isn't happening anytime soon.

I must confess I am really frustrated with the length of my recovery and I feel like there's some deficit on my part responsible for me not healing faster. The docs and nurses assure me I'm doing well and that I must be patient but patience is just not my thing.

I had an appointment with the surgeon yesterday and he finally scheduled the colonoscopy that needs to be done before he can do my next surgery. That test is set for Oct 11 and if all is fine, the surgery will be Oct 25. He also said, if all goes well, I will probably be myself again by this time next year.

I can't even explain how hard those words hit me even though I know he is probably right. I have been hoping I would be back in the saddle by my birthday in Feb. I knew I was probably stretching that just a little, some of my friends have suggested more like spring but fall of next year just seems like too much to bare.

I haven't really posted all the details about my illness and so that long date might confuse some. Mostly I haven't posted because I keep telling myself this is a horse blog and people expect to hear stories about my horses. However, my horses have been so tightly wrapped up in my journey because of how deeply they are in my heart, I am beginning to think my reasoning has been flawed. Each blogger I have spoken with has wanted to know the whole story and I guess it really does explain what is happening here so I am considering telling it as I have the strength to do so.

Keep in mind It still does not take much to exhaust me. Yesterday I had two medical appointments AND then a farrier visit along with some people coming to see horses. Although I spent much of the barn time in a chair I overdid and will be paying for it for days.


I would like to know what my readers think about this. Are you interested in knowing the whole story? Or would you rather just hear about my horses on this blog?