Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Update

If there was any doubt that new prescription was at the root of my latest setback, it was quickly quelled. Within twenty-four hours of discontinuing the use of this drug the pain in my shoulders and upper arms subsided. It has taken longer for the remaining symptoms to stop but I seem to be making a little progress each day.

At first I didn't realize how much of what I was experiencing was caused by the prescription. The pain in my shoulders and arms was the most obvious but turned out to be just the beginning. Only as each day passes and I am not back to where I was before those meds are all the effects becoming clear.

I finally was able to see my doctor. He says  the drug should be cleared from my body at this point but I am still experiencing symptoms.  They appear to be in diminishing amounts but he thinks its possible I'm reacting to the other new prescription too so at this point I don't know what to think.

Currently I am having continued muscle weakness, sporadic muscle spasms, intermittent sleep, loss of the little stamina I had and sometimes some foggy thinking. The latter has been particularly frightening.

While it's frustrating to feel worse right now than I did exactly one year ago today, it is good to know that I am on the other side of the third surgery and its complications. To stay positive I try to remind myself where things went later in the month and where I have come since then.

Through all of this not a single day goes by that I don't think about the impact my health has had on my dream. I have to remind myself the horses don't care about all the things I worry about. They are happy and healthy and glad to see me even if I am not putting in those long days I used to do.   A pat or a kiss is as good as a workout to them.

It does my heart good to see the expressions of each as I approach them and it's healing to be able to lay my hands on every horse I own all within the same day even if just for a moment and even if I only have the strength now and then. This setback may have slowed me down but it isn't going to stop me of that I am sure even if I don't know when I will be back up to speed.

10 comments:

  1. Oh I feel so bad for you. Everything happens for a reason. Have you ever heard of protandim? It's a wonderful supplement. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LTBpSjiTWv0

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  2. Glad to see a post I have been thinking of you . I am pleased to read you are doing better, it is sure a long haul, but if anyone can face this challenge with such grace it is you

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    1. Thanks for thinking of me but I am not sure about grace, I am pretty frustrated. It's been a year since the third surgery that nearly killed me and I'm not much closer to being back to my old self than I was six months ago. Someone said it could be another year for that and that's not setting very well either. I am in one day at a time mode, trying to maintain my sanity.
      And in response to your comment on the last post, if you're thinking about calling, feel free. I'm feeling pretty isolated so calls and emails are help with that.

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  3. Glad to hear from you. It sounds like that prescription medicine really did you in. Good that you've got it switched to something else. Feel better and hang in there. It's a slow process but you are getting better each day.

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    1. Thanks, Arlene, I have to remind myself a little progress is better than none, even if it is frustrating.

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  4. Soooo glad you are off the medicine and making progress, though slow. It's wonderful that you can be with the horses. All they really care about is having "mom" around. You have shown such courage through all of this. Bravo!

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    1. Thank you, but it doesn't feel like courage, just plugging along trying to get through. The horses definitely keep me going. I don't know how I would do it without them.

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  5. Glad to hear from you :) It sure sounds like a long time to heal, but having a goal at the end will help and it sure is nice to see the horses are happy to see you as well.

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  6. So happy to hear how you are. I get worried when I don't see a post for awhile (as I am sure everyone else)!
    I am sure the horses are happy to see you and a pat and a kiss are good for you and them! Hope you will be feeling well enough soon so you can get back to riding your precious and beautiful horses!

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  7. juat catching up on whats been going on in your life for the last few years

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